My girlfriend gives me the love and affection to make up for my mum, dad, sister.. Any family you can think of. Sitting with her family all around and I sometimes feel like crying. I know it would have is downs as well just think it would be so so nice to come home and get a hug when you come in the door. When you go out for someone to give a shit if you came back. They are a proper family. I don't feel like I'm connected to anyone sometimes, basically disconnected like Fiona was when we where about six. When I come home I just feel trapped, lost like I'm just a visitor. I'm not saying that its all bad but.. It just makes it so hard to be away from her because she's literally the only person I can be that close with, have a cuddle and know I mean something to her. I think that's part of the reason why I get so jealous and scared. She's all I've got and It's like I need to be special to her because she's the only one that really cares.