You know what's weird, how things can change so much and still be alright. That even though I'm totally on my own without the love and support I thought I needed, I'm lonely but I'm okey. Sitting with Eilidh watching a film and I seriously wanted to wrap my arms around her and cuddle her into me. It's painful that I can't have that just now but in a way I love it because it's a strong feeling. Not nothing. I'd so much rather be in pain that feel utterly nothing. I know the next time I get to kiss a girl or even just touch her I will love it so much more than if it hadn't have been painful. That's ace.