Last night i sat and resisted the urge to text her because i don't know with what eyes she reads my texts anymore. Do they make her angry, does she read them with a blank face then delete the conversation. Does she still keep our whole conversation because she can't bare to delete me, shit i hope she can't bare to delete me. I wanted to tell her that, if something happened and i didn't wake up tomorrow, that i loved her with all my heart.