Today was a really good day actually, not sure why it just was. It makes no sense to think it but I feel like I'm back to myself instead of being split between two people. Instead of someone else driving me or controlling things I've got everything back now. Even crushing on people and telling them again Awh shit. At the same time as it's nice to be that level of being able to connect with people, I'm perfectly happy and content. I'm the only person that I can trust take care of myself properly, and I like that. As always though just going with the flow.