Genuinly such a relief to be back in glasgow, it's was more like coming home than being in muthill was if i'm being honest. All my stuff is here, my most important things and i control it. Live with people that i can have a proper conversation with and it isn't all negative and fighting and shit. Feel so much better, went back sorted out my shit to do with nat final bits wise - let it properly hit me i think as well and now i don't know much lighter. (Even if i have put on a bit of chub i'm not really caring - more to hug! ) Guess it maybe was the little bit of closure i needed, closer to it being put to rest.