It's always going to be fucking painful because of the way it played out. Enough bringing new things your going to force on me to deal with. Need to get out somewhere tonight because feeling pretty close to losing it for some reason. Tapping away has gotten to a point. Some affection or even just a cuddle would be amazing right now but it's not going to happen so it seems useless pineing for it. Exaughsted of all this shite. I'll deal with it tomorrow and force myself into getting shit done, tonight i seriously don't have the resolve to do anything than just let it be.